SEEING FOR THE FIRST TIME
It was a boy (it’s always about a boy). That is how I stumbled there: to a place of complete and utter despair. I say a boy because our actions were that of children at play. Children playing an adult’s game in which our emotional wellness served as a bargaining chip.
Yet, we were eager to put on our parents’ clothing and play at LIFE. Since the beginning it was an uphill battle going against all odds. He was going to start a new chapter of his life in a year and never look back. This was apparent to me – ‘the girl’ – yet the need to be loved and cherished blinded my senses of reality; together we embarked on the road to perdition. As is true of many of the (well-traveled) roads that lead there, on the journey we encountered beautiful and whimsical lands along the way.
Unbeknownst to me this was the road which would eventually lead me to my true identity. Forcing me to question all preconceived ideas that had been skillfully woven deep within my mind. The day I refused to continue conforming my inner self to this notion was the day I truly became FREE. It was no longer the stereotypical life that I was looking for but something truly worthwhile that only I would be able to create. Just like that something had shifted in my psyche and it sure felt as such. It was that moment when your whole world is turned upside down just to realize.. it’s been turn right side up.
Now looking back, I realize I was an artistic soul dying to be ‘normal’ and would never fit into the unrealistic standards that was never meant to be my life. Essentially I was impeding my true nature; I was forcing my voice shut and burying my perspective. Diminishing the importance of my role as a Citizen. All because I was too scared to be different – to be myself.
My inspiration behind CIT!ZEN is to entice, spark and move artistic souls to come out of the shadows of complacency and embrace true individuality. This blog is an interactional forum extending a platform to all artists looking to become a part of what true citizenship can be all about.
CIT!ZEN; Real People, True Artists!
WRITTEN BY CLAUDIA H BRADY
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